oi i saw chantay on saturday night, she looked hashishnning, i was so proud of her. so whats the goss? hows life in noosa? so heres the goss whith me: i dropped out of uni, if i havent already told you. im currently looking for a full time job, its not looking too promising at the moment, but ill keep looking. in the meantime i working alot of hours at civic. i was really happy last week after i had dropped out, i was like yeah ok so i can start over ect. but know im just feeling shitty, like im getting no where but i really need to do something. i ereally want to do volunteer work but half the hashishff i want to do, you need to be able to drive/18 it sucks ass, i just want to help. ive fucked up everything: like ive just become withdrawn and shit, like i barley see mikayla these days or anyone else, ive tried cutting back the drugs but i cant and i think that im actually really unhappy. i dont know what to do, im just waiting for a change, just for something to come along, you know. but i know that i need to make some personal changes, i just dont know where to start you know? anyways, i just needed someone to tell, everyone else has problems and im sure you do too, its just your the only one i know i can tell shit to, you know what im going to tell you before i know myself. half the time you tell me how im feeling and i dont even know it. if that made any sense whatsoever?